Bad mood, crazy mood

Maybe it will make you feel like I'm crazy, or stupid, or whatever, but yeah, I'm sitting here, no, rolling here crying just because I think I'm losing you, and losing my everything. No I didnt mean that you are my everything, but yes, that's exactly how I feel.
Really bad.
I love you, from my heart. Maybe I did nothing for you, but my feeling is right.
I dont know what and how to say about this shit.
It's kinda weird. I dont know.

I feel like I just cant stand here and see you're getting further from me day by day.

No, it's not clear. Just my bad feeling. Really.Bad.Feeling.

I dont know if I can stand the next 2 years without you. For sure I can say that you're a special part of my life.

You may say I'm such a stupid girl to cry out loud just because of some fucking unreal reasons.

I'm so tired now. I just cant sleep. I miss you, so so bad. Can we go having some pizza together now? I miss hanging out with you :(

My mood is really bad now. I dont even know why. Can you just plz, talk to me?

I know you were lying and it was just because you didnt want me to feel bad, but in fact it made me feel even worse. I dont want to lose you and our friendship :(